Mom I’ve found someone that I love and care for very much. He’s funny and charming and all the makings of a gentleman. Sometimes he opens the door for me, and other days he lets me open my own door. He’s respectful, and understanding and cares for me in small and large ways. Even when he doesn’t understand my position on an issue he respects my point of view. Getting to know him has taught me so much about the kind of person I want to be, as a woman and as a wife.
The more time I spend with him the more I hope that he’ll make me his life partner, one day. I don’t want to rush him, or pressure him, I just want to know where his heart is at. I have no one to question his intentions, and sometimes he seems too good to be true. Yes, he has flaws and shortcomings, but the way he cares for me, and tries so earnestly to support and love me, outweighs them. Indeed he has a long way in understanding how i am different from him, and how we need to accommodate each other, but it is a work in progress. He leads in his own, hesitant, insecure way but i know that he is trying. Yes it frustrates me when he ignores our issues for the sake of keeping the peace but he’s no longer afraid to tackle them with me.
Which shows me how much he has grown, and attests to how much he continues to grow. His view of life is very laid-back though, and as much as it complements my uptight nature sometimes I worry that he doesn’t take me, or our relationship seriously. That is one of the things that scares me most in our relationship. How can we get over our inherent differences? I do not want to change him, or stifle who he really is at his core, but I fear that I am left vulnerable by his nonchalance. To be fair, as he gets older I see and acknowledge that he is becoming aware of himself and of his choices.
He is becoming an incredible person, and I love and admire him for who he is. Above all else I am grateful to have him in my life, and to have him by my side. His heart, his mind and his spirit encourage me. He gives me hope for the future, together maybe?