A heaviness falls over me
when I think of you
Everything droops
with lead in my blood
Weighed down by anxiety
Chased constantly
in and out of fear.
Being here hurts without pause
Smashing into me over and over again
I don’t know where to start with this pain
It crowds my thoughts,
tapes my mouth, pulls my arm behind my back.
This unmovable buoy,
anchoring me in my lonely ocean
one of sadness.
And they’ve said I own this sea
Labelled me morbid
afraid to be glad
unhappy without cause
Without a way around
this island of remorse.